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A GENERAL FOODIE
Living Life
For the past 3 years or so, I’ve challenged myself to live life in a manner where I personally feel at my best. Not what other people view me as, not even how I’ve viewed me for, but rather learning to allow life to flow, God to steer, and me to know and read the directions lol.
As a general foodie, one thing I often did to explore life was through food. Whether I was cooking it, eating it, or just staring at it (…um don’t judge me), I wanted to know just how far life could take me. It wasn’t just about the food but about the sensory nature of the world at large. The full experience of life. How the wind felt against my head, how soft the petals on flowers were, the slight and distinct smell of rain, the manner of resilience that faced with world with a smile.
Maybe I sound a bit dreamy, but I will tell you this: There is strength in the present. The here and the now. Living life is about having a plan but it is the Lord who orders your steps. Live here, live now, and live freely.
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The Trial And Error
Speaking of living freely, I have always yearned to live freely. For many years. I often thought about my past and how much of a hold it had over my life. While I may look young, the years have been ragged with much pain. From suicidal ideation, to homelessness, to sexual abuse. I’ve faced many different challenges. A lot of what I faced made me want to run and hide. To scream at my problems to go away and to work until I crumbled (literally) under the weight of it all.
Now, I won’t say that I am SO much better that I don’t have tendrils of weakness, of me just wanting to crawl into my own little shell, but each day I am learning to smile more. Each day, I am learning to laugh more. Each day, I yearn to learn more. Each day.
There is, now, a duality within me in which I am no longer just ‘Aleisha’ – the quiet one. But ‘Aleisha’ – the golden retriever (a lovely description from a friend of mine), or ‘Aleisha’ – the sweetheart (from a different friend of mine), or just, you know, Aleisha. I like that. It is has a nice ring to it.
I am learning how to be me, in each and every facet of my personality. Right now, I’m just me and I like that for myself.
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I’ve Never Thought…
Lord, if I could go back in time and tell myself of my accomplishments and my failures, I would probably not know what to do with myself. I’d probably end up looking me square in the face and ask “Are we sure?”. Lol. Not whether or not I was real, but rather if I was sure in the future that I wanted to take. And to be honest, I am still very unsure. But I know this, the more I learn, the more I’ll adapt.
I am taking it one step at a time and working things out very slowly.
Currently, I am working on finding my passions and what I love to do. Writing is one of them. Speaking about topics that I enjoy is another. And God, of course, is the center of it all. So I thought, why not combine them?
A New Start
A Healthier Version Of Me
In this period of my life, I am the healthiest and happiest that I’ve ever been. I am finally understanding the importance of healthy eating, vitamin intake, exercise, mental health awareness within myself, emotional regulation, prayer, fasting, meditation, delving deeper into Carl Jung Shadow Work, and so much more.
Although, I am still learning, for these past years, I’ve accumulated much knowledge over these subjects and I want to also be able to share them with you, lovely reader. Hopefully, through what I speak about, you will learn how to live more openly, freely, and/or in a more healthier state in mind, body, and soul.